Daytime Ottawa on Rogers TV

Here's an interview I recently did on the Rogers Television program "Daytime Ottawa." Co-host Derick Fage and I chat about the Lulu Awards controversy, my graphic novel the road to god knows... and the launch of my new graphic novel Stargazer at Ottawa's Perfect Books in November 2010.

Lightly-Edited Transcript

TL Rader: Alright, the second half of the show coming up is jam-packed.

Derick Fage: It is.

TL Rader: You’re having an interesting conversation with Von Allan.

Derick Fage: Oh, this is great.

TL Rader: This is going to be neat. I can’t wait to hear you guys have your chat.

Derick Fage: He is a Lulu Award nominee. He’s actually been nominated for three of these awards. And these awards, as a matter of fact, are for books, graphic novels, books by women, for women. Von Allan is a man.

TL Rader: I know!

Derick Fage: So you can imagine there’s a bit of controversy around these nominations. And it’s a wonderful book. As you can see, my bookmark, I’m three-quarters of the way through. It talks about a very important topic. The main character, of course, is a woman.

TL Rader: Yeah, he was nominated in like three categories, right?

Derick Fage: That’s right. One of them being Best Newcomer. And I think that’s really the biggest, most controversial nomination so far.

TL Rader: Yeah, because one was for the character or something. So that’s, you know, but the fact that it’s Newcomer, but it’s a man.

Derick Fage: Yes.

TL Rader: Yeah, yeah, that’s interesting.

Derick Fage: So it’s going to be a great conversation. I’m looking forward to it.

[Transition Break]

Derick Fage: Welcome back to the show. I want you to imagine there’s a set of awards for comics for women by women. And you happen to be a man who writes a graphic novel, a comic, and is nominated for three of those awards. Well, there is some controversy involved. And Von Allan, the author of “the road to god knows…,” joins us on the show. First of all, congratulations on the book.

Von Allan: Thank you.

Derick Fage: And congratulations on the nominations.

Von Allan: Thank you very much.

Derick Fage: Let’s jump into the nominations.

Von Allan: Sure.

Derick Fage: Right off the bat, before we get into the book, because it must have… Did it come as a surprise to you when you found out? Because you were nominated for three awards, correct?

Von Allan: Oh, yeah. I was aware they… It’s all by popular vote. So I was aware that they were happening, and I mentioned to a couple of people online in like early August that, hey, you know, there’s a chance. Go nominate me. You know, what the hell. I suggested to people that, like, best book and maybe best character. I never thought that it would even necessarily be eligible for any of the other categories. So I’m still a bit stunned how it made the other category that’s the contentious one.

Derick Fage: Well, what’s the contentious one? What’s that other category?

Von Allan: Okay. It’s called the Kim Yale Award, and it’s in honour of a female writer named Kim Yale who died of breast cancer when she was 43, I believe. And it’s been around for a while, around 15 years as far as I know, and no man had ever been shortlisted in that category, I guess. So how I got shortlisted in that, I’m not sure, but as it’s turned out, I guess there was never anything in the statutes of that category that forbid it. It just never happened before.

Derick Fage: Okay. So if you win that award, then we could probably see this explode into even more controversy.

Von Allan: Yes.

Derick Fage: Well, let’s talk about the book itself. I had a chance to read it, and you really tackle an important issue that I think is taboo for a lot of people, but you decided to tackle mental illness. Why did you choose that particular topic?

Von Allan: Well, it was a couple of things. The really pragmatic choice is when you’re nobody and you’re trying to do a first book, you either… in comics, it’s primarily superheroes in North America, so you either do your riff on superheroes. Nobody’s ever heard of you. Why would they read it?

Derick Fage: Right.

Von Allan: Or you do something that’s personal. I used to run a bookstore. I know, regardless of subject matter, regardless of, you know, graphic novel or prose or what have you, how hard first-time books struggle with sales. So you might as well do something you believe in.

My mom was diagnosed schizophrenic when I was a kid. It meant my upbringing, I was a sort of single child — my mom and dad split up when I was pretty young — so it meant my upbringing was kind of unique compared to some other people I knew.

Derick Fage: Right.

Von Allan: And I looked around and I just didn’t see really any other graphic novels or comics tackling this subject matter. So I thought it was important. I thought I could maybe bring a bit of — maybe ‘insight’ is too strong of a word — but I had something to say about it. That’s why I did it.

Derick Fage: Yeah, you can share your personal story. I think what’s really intriguing is that you chose to do it from a female perspective.

Von Allan: Well, that was for a couple of reasons. One is I was really sure that if I did it from, if the main character had been a boy, then it would have been very clear, like, ‘hey, he’s talking about himself. Look, it’s right there. That’s him.’

Derick Fage: Right.

Von Allan: So I didn’t want to do that. The other thing is, as soon as I made the main character, Marie, female, it’s fiction. I could play with time. I could take elements that did happen in my life, but I could compress them into a narrative that actually worked for a pacing of the story. In real life, some of the stuff, really all the stuff happened in the book to me, but it would have happened over a number of years. So trying to make the narrative work just over about a month or so was a big deal when I was writing the script.

Derick Fage: Well, and her character has a best friend throughout this.

Von Allan: Yes.

Derick Fage: That’s a great support to her. Is that something that you had in your life? In your life? In your situation?

Von Allan: I did, but not so much through one person.

Derick Fage: Okay.

Von Allan: So Kelly, her friend, is sort of an amalgam of a number of different people. And that’s actually one of the other reasons why I didn’t want to do it as pure autobiographical material, because I’d have to okay this with people.

Derick Fage: Right.

Von Allan: Like, are you okay? Really? Oh, I didn’t represent you? Well, somebody’s coming at me with a knife, you know, or what have you.

Derick Fage: Right.

Von Allan: So fiction just opens up everything. It allows you to play with stuff. I was able to take some of the best elements, what I would consider the best elements of friends I had. And I didn’t have a large number of friends when I was a kid, and I was a pretty shy kid. But it allowed me to say, you know, these people actually did matter. They do help.

And when you’re going through some of this stuff, and you’re going through it alone, it’s very isolating. So just being able to hang out with a friend, blow off steam on a Saturday, or what have you, in hindsight, I had no idea how much that helped go through some of this stuff.

Derick Fage: Right. The character, obviously the main character, Marie, shows great strength throughout this book.

Von Allan: I think so.

Derick Fage: I mean, she really is a heroine. Did you find that you had that kind of strength when you were going through this?

Von Allan: No, but I mean, I think one of the things I tried to do with the book is, to my mind, the sort of the driving force is Marie’s growing up. She’s around 13 in the story. And the awareness she has, and it’s implied in the story, I don’t come out and say it, is she realizes that her mom’s messed up. She can’t solve that problem for her mom. She loves her mom, her mom loves her, but she can’t fix it for her. So Marie has to learn to let go. And in letting go, she’s learning to stand on her own two feet. And that, to my mind, is underlying everything, is the full narrative. It’s her awakening as becoming an adult.

Derick Fage: Right.

Von Allan: And it’s huge. So I mean, the strength is, it’s that awareness. And that she comes to that, I think is, to my mind, is the best part of the story.

Derick Fage: We’re obviously going to follow this story about the Lulu Award nominations and looking forward to that. You also have another book coming out called “Stargazer.” Which is very different from this one that you did. Tell us about the book coming out in November.

Von Allan: It’s about three young girls. It’s a fantasy. So it’s very, very different. “Road” is very much a slice of life story. So it’s about three girls who find themselves, younger girls, who find themselves magically transported to another planet.

And it’s funny because I wanted to do a story that was very different than “road” that actually still sort of hit on some of the same themes. So actually, what I was just saying, letting go is a huge part. These girls want to get home. Marnie, the main character in that story, is dealing with the death of her grandmother. And her inability to let go is a huge part of that story.

So when I came up with the idea, it sort of echoes “road,” but in a completely different way with a very, very different subject matter.

Derick Fage: Yeah, and I can see it too. Because being in that situation where you’ve got, you know, a family member suffering from mental illness and you’re young, you probably got away from it all by fantasizing, right? And going somewhere else.

Von Allan: I think people underestimate the power of escapism. You know, it doesn’t really matter what it is. Even if it’s crap, you know, it doesn’t really matter. Being able to, you know, on a Saturday evening, curl up with comics or watch a movie or something like that. Or as in “road,” you know, watch wrestling or something. Just to be able to take a break from stuff, take a break from your life and pull back is, I think, incredibly therapeutic.

Derick Fage: Yeah, I agree a hundred percent. The book launch coming up in November, tell us when and where.

Von Allan: It’s on November 7th at Perfect Books. It’s a Sunday. And Perfect Books on Elgin Street, 258A Elgin Street at about four o’clock and then we’ll see how long it goes. You know, hopefully lots of people, so it’ll go for a while.

Derick Fage: Well, congratulations. Real pleasure having you on the show. Really appreciate it. If you want to find out more information or follow the story on the Lulu Award nominations, you can visit Von Allan’s website at www.vonallan.com.

Don’t go anywhere. We’ll be right back right after the break.

CBC Ottawa's All In A Day

Way back in 2007, I had a very nice chat with Adrian Harewood, then host of the CBC Ottawa radio program All In A Day. This was actually a very special moment for me; I had been a long-time fan of the show and I listened to it quite regularly while I was working away at my drawing board. Needless to say it was cool — and intimidating — to be invited on as a guest. I think I managed to over my nerves pretty quickly and we proceeded to discuss comics in Canada as well as my part in an art show at the Parkdale Gallery (owned and operated by artist James Robinson). The show was titled “Comic Book Chaos” and featured a number of Ottawa-area cartoonists and comic book artists. Sadly, the Parkdale Gallery has now closed; running a gallery is never easy, but I was quite disappointed when James was forced to shut it down.

You can listen by clicking right here or by clicking play on the little player below. In addition, a lightly-edited transcript of our discussion is provided below.

Lightly Edited Transcript

Adrian Harewood: For decades it was seen as disposable art, but throughout December an Ottawa Art Gallery is celebrating comic book art. The Parkdale Gallery is holding an exhibit called “Comic Book Chaos.” An Ottawa artist, Eric Julien, is featured in the show. He’s the artist behind the graphic novel “the road to god knows…” and he draws under the pen name Von Allan. Eric joins us in our studio. Hi Eric.

Von Allan: Hi.

Adrian Harewood: Thanks so much for coming in.

Von Allan: Oh, my pleasure.

Adrian Harewood: Eric, you’ve been invited to exhibit as part of this show. Why do you think comic strips belong in art galleries?

Von Allan: I think for the longest time they weren’t — particularly the art form of comics — wasn’t really considered that important.

Adrian Harewood: Why?

Von Allan: I don’t know. I think, well, I think part of it is that one of the things — one of my picky points — has always been that a lot of people confuse comics as a medium and the genre. And the genre in North America has traditionally been superheroes. And not that there’s anything wrong with that, but that would be like saying all literature has to be romance novels. And there’s far more depth to the medium than that. And because of that disconnect, you’ve had, to my mind, people thinking that superheroes equal kids stuff. It’s not really relevant. So why would it ever be in a gallery? It doesn’t belong there. So it really has no place.

Adrian Harewood: It’s almost seen — perhaps in some quarters — as being too popular, as serving the masses.

It certainly is and was a populist medium, for sure. I mean, there was a time, not really that long ago, where comics were found on every corner newsstand. And that’s where people would go. I mean, the comic book shop as a retail store is really something that’s only come in through the mid to late 70s. And that sort of changed the purchasing arrangement of how comics were consumed. And it also meant that they became more collectible. And it’s the collectible part that kind of bugs me sometimes.

Adrian Harewood: How did you become a graphic novelist?

Von Allan: It’s a weird story. I used to run Perfect Books down on Elgin Street. I was sort of selling other people’s creativity, not my own. And I’ve always loved comics. They’ve always spoken to me. And I was kind of a lonely, insecure kid. They were good escapism for me. And it was totally superheroes I was escaping into. And I never thought I could do this. I never thought I could draw. And for a variety of happy circumstances, I took a shot at it. I just got over that hump and I took a shot. I sucked for a long time. But I started drawing and I got better. And I think I’ve gotten better now. And it was just the leap of faith.

Adrian Harewood: Was it an epiphany? Did you just wake up one morning and say, “I can do this as well.”

Von Allan: I thought I could write. I didn’t really think I could draw. And then I was lucky enough to start meeting a few people who were artists, partially through the bookstore. And I started getting an insight into the work involved, the bad days, the struggle, the struggle to get better, all that kind of stuff. And it sounds so naive. I sound so silly with it. But I really thought that artists of all stripes, not just comics, were kind of hit with a magic wand when they were born. And they were an artist and the talent was always there.

Adrian Harewood: They were made that way.

Von Allan: They were made that way. And if you didn’t have that, if you weren’t part of that secret society, you couldn’t do it. And that’s totally false.

Adrian Harewood: You’ve proved it. You have your your new novel part of your graphic novel, “the road to god knows…” is featured in this exhibit. And it was recently published online. Can you walk me through the story?

Von Allan: It’s about a teenage girl dealing with her mom’s schizophrenia.

Adrian Harewood: Her name is Marie.

Von Allan: Her name is Marie and she’s going through some tough times. The story set in Ottawa. And it’s, I guess you would call it is a “slice of life” story. And what I tried to do with it was tell a story that hopefully resonates, if I’ve done my job right, and doesn’t try to give any pat answers to what mental illness — or in this case — what schizophrenia is. In a way, I think the story might disappoint a few people who — by the time they end this, like they’ve closed the last page — they might be a little bit disappointed that there isn’t a happy resolution. Mental illness isn’t something you resolve in one fell swoop. There is a subplot. There is a subplot that keeps the story going that I think will give it some closure. It was something I thought was important to deal with. It speaks to me personally from some of my own experiences in my life. And it was different than a lot of stuff that’s out there.

Adrian Harewood: I was gonna ask you that question, because you call it a slice of life story. How much of it is a slice of your life?

Von Allan: If you can imagine I’m a teenage girl, it’s pretty close. I drew a lot of my own experiences. Some comic book artists — like Seth and what have you, Chester Brown — have done a lot of autobiographical material. I was a little bit hesitant for a variety of reasons. The main one is that I find fiction lets you play with time a little bit. If it’s pure autobiography, you run into the pesky details of representing real human beings who may not be so keen on how you’re depicting them. With fiction, you can play with it. I made amalgams of different people. I think I made amalgams of myself in it. I don’t consider Marie myself. She’s one permutation of what I could have been or who I might have been. And it is a lot more freeing to write a script like that.

Adrian Harewood: Clearly, this is a story for people to read, to look at. But how much of it is therapy?

Von Allan: I don’t think… I don’t ever want to call it that, but it probably was therapeutic for me. I don’t want to be didactic and getting up on a soapbox, or anything like that with it. I don’t think there are any easy answers. I think in a way — again, if I’ve done my job right — I’m raising questions about mental illness, at least how one family copes with it. That’s probably as far as I’m willing to go. This is just one look at it.

Adrian Harewood: What do you think graphic novels can do that straight novels can’t?

Von Allan: They present visuals in a way that’s different than a film or TV or anything like that. And can be differently nuanced than fiction. I don’t think one medium is superior to the other or anything like that. I love novels and I’ve happily sold fantastic books that I strongly believe in. But I do think that it’s something about the combination of how words and pictures — if you get into “left brain, right brain” theory — works in a way that’s different fundamentally than what film and literature bring. It’s that very difference that makes comics and graphic novels so special.

Adrian Harewood: How did you go about selecting which pages you wanted to display in the gallery?

Von Allan: That was tricky. Partially because in a way it’s almost counter-intuitive to what the graphic novel is supposed to be. I mean, each page flows sequentially to try to tell a story. So taking some of those pages out of context kind of concerned me a little bit. Really, it came down to trying to find images that I thought worked on their own, kind of told a story in and of themselves. A lot of these were sort of splash pages, larger pages that I thought would work okay on a wall. It’s still a bit of a different experience. I’m hoping people like it. It is a little unusual, though, to do it. I think I picked well. We’ll see.

Adrian Harewood: This really seems to be the golden age in some ways for graphic novels. Even in this country, I’m thinking… you mentioned Chester Brown and his great novel “Louis Riel.” One person whom I love, Ho Che Anderson.

Von Allan: Yeah, Ho Che Anderson is amazing.

Adrian Harewood: What is it about? What’s going on in Canada right now that we’re producing so many fine graphic novelists?

Von Allan: Without sounding too trite, I think the medium is growing up. I think that, for a long time, it was that superhero — sort of dogmatic, bam, that’s what it was. People are now trying different things. Bookstores are way more approachable now with carrying them. Almost every bookstore at least has a couple of graphic novels in. There was a time if they were there at all, they were in the kids section. That certainly helped. The talent has gotten a lot better. It’s a lot more varied. We need more publishers pursuing it and trying to find good works, bringing that work to the public and showing it off.

Adrian Harewood: You’re trying to break into a pretty tough industry. What do you think you need to do to succeed?

Von Allan: I wish I had the answer for that. It has been a really tricky thing. And I ran a bookstore! I wish I had more insights than I do. You keep pushing, you stay optimistic. You hope the work resonates. Connections, you really you have no idea. I think sometimes it’s a crapshoot. I will say I wish sometimes there was a little bit more attention to graphic novels with some of the award categories. But that’s a pipe dream of mine right now. That’s not quite there yet.

Adrian Harewood: I want you to make your pitch right now. Why should people go and go and see this exhibit at the gallery?

Von Allan: There is amazing stuff. And it’s not just mine. If you want to see different artwork, artwork that will stick in your gut, artwork that is colorful, it’s bold, it’s doing different stuff. I mean, there’s Ottawa artists like Ronn Sutton, who people don’t even know that are there. You know, it’s magic. There’s some amazing work going on right there. And I think it’s not all just comics or anything like that. But I think you’ll be pleasantly surprised if you go. Take a look.

Adrian Harewood: Eric, great to talk to you. Nice to meet you. Thanks so much for coming in.

Von Allan: Thanks very much.

Adrian Harewood: Eric Julien also goes by his pen name Von Allan. You can check out his graphic novel “the road to god knows…” at www.girlamatic.com. Some of Eric’s work is also on display at the Parkdale Gallery as part of the “Comic Book Chaos” Exhibit. And the show runs until January 1st.

CCKC Interview November 20, 2009

This is a radio interview I did with Erin Ashley on CCKC radio in Dartmouth, Nova Scotia in the fall of 2009. We discuss my graphic novel “the road to god knows…” and how Children of Parents with a Mental Illness (or COPMI) cope. Or at least how I did. You can listen to the interview by clicking here, playing it using the audio player below, or you can read the lightly edited transcript of the interview just below the audio player.

Lightly Edited Transcript

Erin Ashley: My name is Erin Ashley. I am about to kick out the jams, but I got one little thing left to share with you. And that is about graphic novel “the road to god knows…”, which introduces the reader to teenage Marie. She’s trying to adjust to her mother’s recent mental health diagnosis. Now, schizophrenia is a lonely disease, and graphic novelist Von Allan is one unfortunate soul who knows all about it. Growing up, Von and his mother suffered through her mental illness, but the experience wasn’t completely negative. After all, he was inspired to write “the road to god knows…”, a semi-autobiographical comic which he hopes will help others living with the disease. I got a hold of him via telephone, and this is what he had to say.

I’m curious about the circumstances around publishing this novel. Is this something you put out yourself, or did you have to shop it around a little bit?

Von Allan: I actually put it out by myself. I did shop it around a little bit. It’s a first book, and I’m an unknown creator, so it’s hard right now in publishing to get people to pay attention to you. And I didn’t shop it around to too many publishers, but I decided, you know, you sort of go through the rejection process and what have you, and it’s pretty difficult for any author, no matter how successful they are. And I just went, “it’s a pretty personal book for me. I’d like to be able to control it.” Aside from anything else, it’s pretty autobiographical. So choosing this route, doing the self-publishing route, seemed to fit it really well. And so far the reception is pretty good. Nobody seems to care all that much that I self-published it. So, “yay” for that!

Erin Ashley: Now, you’ve written “the road to god knows…” to create a dialogue about mental illness. Why do you feel a graphic novel was the best way to achieve this?

Von Allan: Well, I love comics. I’ve loved comics since I was about seven or eight years old. And I think comics have a unique power as a medium to actually communicate a little differently than how prose does and how film does. There’s been a lot of different discussion in the past about why comics work the way they do. Some people do “right brain, left brain” theory, that there’s something about the combination of words and pictures, and how they sort of just get right into your head that’s remarkably powerful.

And more pragmatically, too, is when I was sort of trying to figure out what story I wanted to do for my first one, it seemed to be something that not very many other people have tackled. So, as opposed to doing another superhero story or something like that that’s been pretty well done to death in comics, doing something more personal, doing something that not very many other people have tried to tackle, seemed to be a really good way to go.

Erin Ashley: Yeah, definitely. I know it says in your bio that you kind of dealt with a lot of the same things that Marie deals with in the graphic novel. And you actually took solace and refuge in basically the land of make-believe, like wrestling and comic books, like you were saying earlier. So what was so comforting about that land of make-believe?

Von Allan: I think the big thing is that it’s escape. I mean, one of the things when you’re going through something like this — I’m saying this now that I know this. I’m an adult and I can look back on it and what have you, but the story is really autobiographical, aside from the fact that the main character is a girl. Things are really confusing. My mom wasn’t well. I didn’t know why. My mom had went through a lot of nervous breakdowns while I was growing up. And a lot of things didn’t make sense to me. And that confusion is scary. I was scared a lot. I remember being really terrified a lot. Not so much of my mom, but I didn’t understand what would trigger things. I didn’t understand why these things were happening to her. And I was totally powerless.

You know, it’s my mom. I love her. And this stuff is happening and I can’t help. I don’t have the tools to help her. And nobody’s talking to me either. Nobody in the healthcare profession or what have you at the time was able to really communicate with me — sort of push me aside or pull me aside — and explain what was happening.

So, what do you do? You know, you’re going to school. You’re trying to do this stuff and you try to live your life. And I found a sort of happiness and joy in escapism. And I think a lot of kids probably do. So, for me, it was comics. I was lucky enough to meet up with friends who were really into comics and I just fell in love with them. Stuff as silly as pro wrestling like the book talks about. Also science fiction and what have you. It was just things where what was going on was really confusing in my own life. So being able to just sort of stop thinking about it, stop worrying about it, even if it’s only for a couple of hours, did me a lot of good.

Erin Ashley: Okay. So what’s next for Von Allan?

Von Allan: Well, I mean, I’m trying to get this book out there now. And at the same time, I’m working on my next story. So this is going to be very different. It’s called “Stargazer.” And it’s going to be more of a kid’s story with adult themes. So I’m a little this way, you know. I always like doing stories that have reasonably heavy subject matter. So it deals with a lot of themes of death and letting go of things because that’s part of life, too.

It’s funny. When I tried to figure out what to do, I was thinking, ‘what could I follow up “the road to god knows…” with?’ And I wanted to do something at least thematically similar, if not exactly the same thing. So “Stargazer” is a fantasy. But ironically, it does actually tie into that, you know, how “road” works as well. It’s just I had some more things to say.

Erin Ashley: And so when “Stargazer” going to hit shelves, do you think?

Von Allan: I don’t know. I’m 60 pages in. It’s going to start as a webcomic; barring anything weird happening, it will start as a webcomic first. So for free online. And people can find more about that in my website. And that should actually happen in the next month or so. And then we’ll see if it’s popular enough. Then it’ll become a book, as well.

Erin Ashley: Thanks a lot for joining me today, Von Allan.

Von Allan: Oh, you’re very welcome. Thanks for giving me your time.